The Really Difficult Patients

October 20, 2014 in LOOKBOOK

For my entire short medical career I’ve worked with underserved populations. This presents a few challenges. I initially had difficulty with the typical “narcotic-seeking” patient. They can be threatening and manipulative, not surprisingly. But after many of these interactions, they’re no longer especially difficult or stressful. Sure, I don’t appreciate the conflict, but I don’t go home upset about it. The patient’s that I find incredibly difficult are… let me see how I can explain this.

Many of my patients have close to nothing (or, well, nothing). Maybe they did drugs or alcohol, maybe they still do. Many are homeless. Some have recently been in jail or prison. A few of them have family or friends, but often times the relationships they have with others are less than ideal. So. A patient like this comes in with chief complaint X. You listen to them, encourage them to talk openly and support them instead of judge them (illegal activities and all). You work up their complaint and tell them what’s going on with their health. They seem reassured. Then, you tell them that you’re worried about them, want them to succeed, and want to support them in any way you can. Wow. You can’t believe their reactions. That’s when you realize how much it means to these patients to hear that someone cares about them (I don’t know how many people I make cry after saying this). Its so damn sad to know that sometimes, you’re the most encouraging, supportive person this patient has.

Most of the time we’re too burnt out to be able to handle this extra emotion, as sad as it is. I’m stressed about the upcoming month of nights I have… burnout happens so quickly.

 plaid 2
Phew, enough emotion there. Back to superficial land! It seems like every recent post features pre-owned clothes. Well, this one is no exception! I just love this Donna Karan skirt that I picked up recently (I think it was $30-something dollars?). I have a thing for patterned skirts… they almost seem more versatile than solids. I’ve been eying these plaid and paisley skirts, and will likely pull the trigger on those as the season goes on.

plaid skirt
Its been super easy to browse pre-owned land this fall because it seems that anything and everything is “in.” I’ve seen all sorts of styles and patterns. Its nice. One thing I am having a difficult time with, though, is finding a new bag. Its been a really long time since my last bag purchase, and I’m down to only three bags now. I’ve been hoping I’d just “come across” the perfect bag, but it hasn’t happened. It it wasn’t so expensive, I would have already gotten Gucci’s Jackie bag months ago. I love the shape, love the simplicity, and love the stunning colors it comes in. And I also love that its not as well known as many other bags (like my Celine, or Prada’s saffiano lux tote, Fendi’s 2jours, essentially any Chanel bag, etc), although I do like many of those bags as well. For now I’m going to keep looking and searching for a good deal. I can’t quite justify anywhere close to retail for these lovely bags.

Alright, well, back to work. No idea when I’ll post next, but hopefully soon. Its nice to do some non-work things. I hope you’re having a nice fall! Take care.

Modify the To-Do List

October 14, 2014 in LOOKBOOK

Geeeezzzz, its mid-October already! How did this happen? I’m basically on a self study month, but have lacked the motivation to do at least 50% of the things on my to do list. Hmmmm. Well, if I’m not motivated to do the items on my self-made to-do list, perhaps I should modify the list. It almost feels like cheating… but why? It seems pretty logical to spend most of my time learning about or working on things I enjoy, right? Why do I force myself to work on things just because I feel like I should?

Floral top
Despite my lack of motivation to put on anything that wasn’t yoga clothes this month, I did manage to get dressed and snap these pictures during the last warm days of fall. We’ve been lucky to have experienced such mild weather so far this season! I’m really really not ready for (Minnesota’s deathly) cold weather. It might be time to do some fall shopping. I don’t think I’ve made a retail purchase in… I have no idea. I’m still slowly acquiring fun new additions via eBay, but it might be time to venture back out into retail land.

Last warm weather...
What have you been into this fall? I’m not sure where to start. Everyone seems to have written about and their friends and family sale going on. I’m actually a pretty big fan of shopbop, but I don’t shop there super often because they just have so much stuff. Its overwhelming. I’ve had my eye on just a few things. I’ve mentioned more than a few times now that I have a slight obsession with d-Orsay flats. I tried a few pairs without success and have been waiting for Vince’s Nina flats to make it to sale… now they have! Still expensive, though. They better be amazing or they’re going back. There are a few other items that I’ll contemplate during the next day or two. I love AG jeans and would also love some leather (or leather-like) leggings. These have amazing reviews. It might be worth a try! I’m also thinking about grabbing a pair or two of jeans to try. I really hate pants shopping. I could go with a safe pair of AG stilts (for some reason I’m liking the distressed version). Or I could branch out and try a different brand. I think Rag & Bone might be excluded, sadly. If it wasn’t I would try a pair of their skinnies with huge back pockets like this pair. Maybe I’ll give Mother jeans a shot (I’m really liking my dropout pair I got on eBay, although they’re a size too big). The Looker style seems to get really good reviews, perhaps I’ll try those.

I’m going to try to keep my purchases under control, though. I don’t need to do any excessive spending… all that does is gives me more motivation to moonlight for money, which takes up too much time. Especially with winter coming, I should make sure I’m enjoying my time outside of the hospital, not finding ways to get back there!

*Linking this post with Tara’s “What I wore to work” series (if you’re not familiar with it, its definitely worth a look!)

Its Not a Problem

September 25, 2014 in LOOKBOOK

Its not a “problem,” its a process. This is your chance to practice. 

Many of us view things that dissatisfy us as problems. Need examples? Here are mine: My thighs aren’t toned enough. I’m not studying as much as I should. I’m not saving enough money. I’m not finding time to blog. I’m letting myself get upset from work stress… I could go on, but I’ll spare you. When I find that any of these thoughts are floating around more often than I’d like, I give them some direct attention. I think about what the problem really is, and why I think its a problem. Then I think of what I’m doing to change it. Am I doing enough already or is there something else I should be doing? Its a process. Things don’t just happen, I need to practice.

This mindset helps put me more at ease. I’m not “settling” and just accepting where I am. But I am aware of where I am, and know that I have the ability to change who I will be tomorrow, in a month, or in ten years. Its a healthier way to view these dissatisfying aspects of life, and to take control over them. At least in my opinion!

 Lace Sweatshirt
Dolce & Gabbana Sweater (great solid colored alternative), Mother jeans (non-destroyed version), J. Crew Pumps (my favorite J. Crew pumps yet, actually… so comfy), Celine Mini Luggage

That’s my bit of yoga-inspired blabber for today :) I’m continuing on my recovery month… which hasn’t been so relaxing thus far (I decided to pick up some moonlighting shifts that ended up being nice and busy). Today was my first day not working. It was amazing. I cleaned! And grocery shopped. And took blog pictures. And napped! And exercised. And ate too much pizza… it was a good day! I almost feel like a real person again. The next three days will be spent getting some studying in for my USMLE exam on Monday & Tuesday. Bah, I hate long exams. By the end of the day my butt is numb and my right hand feels like it developed arthritis.

Celine Bag
Clothes! I’m getting excited about clothes again. Its been so long since I’ve worn regular clothes that it takes me a ridiculously long time to find an outfit to wear (that doesn’t involve black). I really love this sweater that I bought a while back (on eBay, of course). But its surprisingly difficult to pair with (perhaps a solid version would have been better… like this beautiful LOFT one?). I think this bi-color sweatshirt looks lovely with a pair of black trousers for work (black black blaaaaaack!!!), but finding pants to pair it with beyond that is difficult for me. I  got these Mother jeans a while back for super cheap ($20-something shipped… here’s the non-ripped version). They were sitting on the top of my jeans pile, so I decided that, whether or not they match the sweatshirt, they will be worn! And there you have it. This is why I could never maintain a “real” fashion blog.

Pink Lace Sweatshirt
Whew, I wrote a book-of-a-post today. Don’t know how that happened. Maybe I’m just subconsciously trying to avoid studying. Hmmm, yeah, that’s probably it. That’s all for now then, I suppose. Thanks for stopping by!